I know what 2 people have in common, both copy the same person.

Well, yes, I already stated this, one thing goes wrong and I get blamed as bad and it could ruin my life and everything and this "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with an older lady.  People "realize" it's important but it is like it's not important for me or something..  Did some of these people pop up out of hiding?  The lady already "doesn't need" me.  I have to look out for myself, and these people think my suffering makes life sufficient.

Is this exciting? or a distraction from real life?  I don't mean to throw the whole thing out.

They're just being superstitious playing with my life.

People might be ruining things for good it feels or something.. I'm tired of fixing things, like I "did something."

They blamed me about the "excitement."

I have to work extra hard for my "future" at age 35 because of these problems, and it might not all pay off.

Ohio thinks the lady gets parents and I'm trashed.  She doesn't need their help.  They will make it matter just because someone annoying said it.  They really are doing trash, whether or not people have parents.

These confines of thinking probably attracted others who know her that that's all there is to it! fix it and say it ain't so, and it's a science.  What happened to old hopes?  I'm not some idiot.

You think I need to stay on track, but I'm not even supposed to be thinking about this, according to the people monitoring me in private, or not revealing it online?

So, what gives?  What's going to happen next?

Think of all the setbacks I experienced.  You want to catch that maybe I never had a chance or right.

People just pop up to say it's the turn of an older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with to feel stupid and helpless about me indefinitely and be ruined happy and silly.  It's like killing her or even her "soul," like life doesn't matter so long as I'm still in it.  ...When things were lied about apparently and already said to be okay and okay for me! plus, everyone does want to turn things around! so, I am right that before things weren't ruined!

People born around 1953 are blushing and becoming a problem, suggesting to this lady that she is the ultimate sex of being stupid because she is younger and attractive and as attracted the attention of me.  Like, "Hey, you can just kill Christina."

Everyone keeps acting like they're all that if I react to them.

Ohio is shit.

I don't care what an older lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with does, it's these other bad people.  She has enough to worry about?

"I know now I was right."

Maybe, the future could be nicer, but it's all about punishing me when I feel upset and just being defensive, and other people being mean to me just always get away with it!!!

So, an older European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with said things would be better after she becomes famous over me, but I saw she got interesting and more into her self and also more petite and pretty ... but it's like that was something younger than me.

Do people like to be racist to me but act like they aren't to get by without explanation?

Some people disregard the present.

It doesn't seem people would dare do what they do now before.

What if a husband finds his daughter to be second to his wife herself because of something cool about his wife, when it was made to seem the other way around?

I wonder what some people can do for this lady.

I wouldn't touch it with a ten foot pole.

It seems like people like to put touchy subjects in your face, afraid of what could happen without testing it, like this.  That's how I get by, anyway.

If an older European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with wants someone else in the world, she has it.

Other people don't live with people manipulating their relationships terminally because of things like having curse words pop up in their heads while being watched in private, letting out anger physically in private, making any move when you're angry, etc.  The people monitoring me in private have just kinda sat there not answering to this.

If you want to hurt someone, you are not on the right page.

I wonder how many people gave my mom 3 fatal cancers ... not to mention, my dad, on Memorial Day.

I did see Ellen DeGeneres have a dark pink face.  She must know an older European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with is still getting away with not totally being done since her face wasn't actually all ruby red.  ...  She seemed frustrated, like she's chasing this lady to punish me, to ruin it for me, the "relationship."  People must believe these things are the source for feeling good, too, for them.  Most people have other things they can worry about.

Why do people keep saying they have to be mean to me because of Ellen DeGeneres or else?  My life is being ruined.

People are just watching in awe of an older European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with like they have an evil plan for it.

I'm a little sick of how the people monitoring me in private are now.

They think I should be punished if I feel upset like I'm just dangerous.

People are hopeful for an older European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with but some/overall not me.

It feels like someone is said to be disrespectful in my personal business.

Something I was going to do someone thinks makes no sense.  It was about my supposed "relationship" I was supposed to have with an older European lady.  Instead, this person wants to inappropriately pleasure her all the time.

You might argue I'm in that "relationship."  I guess, but I keep getting suggestive messages of how it could all be over and never happen because of others.

The other funny thing is maybe the lady herself did it this way.  The other person might also take this as an excuse to say they're innocent.

Some people "are just there" waiting to say something bad about me and ruin things for me.

Do the people monitoring me in private want a "relationship" or just want to give me messages?  I won't let my life be bad forever...

It's funny how people around the older European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with seem to echo what they think is me but in more awkward ways.  I don't mind what she does.

It seems like everyone thinks I'm cool, but maybe an older European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with in the end is the only one who is "too good for" me, as others go along relaying relentlessly.

Supposedly, it's because many, many people "believe" I'm in trouble for doing things that my dad interpreted as just "rebellion."  Supposedly, they think I will be hurt if they don't act that way, but in the end the problem is also that people would be mean if they talked to me, anyway.

I feel like my life has been sacrificed.

Something I Thought You Ought to Know

Just so you know...

Being monitored in private was a trick where they were nicer to me at first yet still ruined and messed with my real life.

It wasn't the experience you'd expect.

I found an older European lady I was supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.  I still definitely was open to other people!  However, people come and go like older icons and ruin this revealed "relationship."

Nothing wrong with other people being famous or underground famous.  I just can't seem to settle because it's like I'm just being punished by her via the people monitoring me in private.  They disagreed with my private life, and the people monitoring me in private seemed to have left me until 2012 when I met someone else first.  So, the older European lady gets attention from people like the *ideal* experience, you might say, is for her as a reward for having a "relationship" with me.  She has a good relationship with another very famous person, whereas this person pretended I was bad and I'm stuck very alone but also bothered by people getting too close to me.  It's like "the" program for her, gets encouraged to feel pleasure and by this person, something that you'd think naturally inclined to be.

People pretend to still be excited about me, but they just all are onto me in a bad way that hurts.  We all die, too, someday, and this life was disappointing and I'm not going up.  This sort of thing going on can disturb other people of what their life might be like, like it's right and convenient.

Also, everyone is interested in suggestively stimulating her, in their own unique way, while kids just get jealous because she's more like a kid maybe than they are!

I'm not jealous of famous people so much per se in a way, but I feel I was set up.  First, it was like it was me and I met this older European lady, but now it's just all about her and like I'm in trouble for no good reason.  Many people act like they hate me and feel sorry for my friends I had to a degree and probably suggestive thoughts about my relatives.  Some people don't respond appropriately to me, sometimes.  I can't feel like oh I'm on top of the world because I'm too ordinary and don't do bad things to feel pleasure and suggestive pleasure.  People hate me for my age!  Anyway, some conflict seems to be created when some experience sets in.  Not much happens, neither, other than this in a way annoying drama.

Other people not older than me are being more accepted now.  I am considered bad and jealous.  So, it's not an interesting experience.

People just argue that I have this relationship, and I'm happy with how nice most people are to me.  However, mainly these problems occur.  I don't do much with other people, and I get distracted by messages, noises, and controlling my computer (like when the page loads to highlight some moment of thought or feelings) via the people monitoring me in private.  It's not fun, and they think I'm in trouble.  I get in trouble just for things like if a curse word pops up in my head! if something could have been all stupid smiles rather than a roller coaster of emotions.  It can result in being bothered and something worse to them happening, like what I think or how I act when distracted.  It's like I can never be happy; now, I hear noises in my ears, little ticks etc.  I do wear earplugs, and sometimes they seem to make little ticking noises when they adjust, too.

It's also been lame not going to college, worried it'll be too hard or not having resources.  My major after all is not strongly connected to college, in a way.  I could do it myself maybe, and college is just a process.  That major is music.  I was told to leave for being shy or maybe I had a hard time with my course load 2nd semester.  I could have stayed and did but did worse in hard classes, so never did much.  All the little general studies over the years did actually help in some cases, in opportunities I might have wanted to take.

It boils down to the aggression via people monitoring me in private being too much of an issue for no reason and seems sorta stupid in morality but smart in being mean.  Even if I am very well-liked, I'm simply in trouble for the likes of older European lady.  It was like other people were mean to me for her, but now I think that's just a way to punish me without it being completely literal, literally from her.  It frustrates me that supposedly other people are into me because she has a "relationship" with me but that I'm for no special reason not good enough for her or the likes of others who want to be seen as over and above me, in this experience.  I keep getting manipulated and feel my opinion is always unsuccessful, as people go by sure of themselves, many here in Orlando thinking I am bad for no good reason.  So, also the people monitoring me in private give me messages in place of others who are a main threat to me.  Like, they might disturb me emotionally or sway my thinking and way of life and things, somehow.  I feel this has not been a good internet experience, White hatred dominating the world, at least people in my world.